He fit.

A couple of days before Christmas our family was sick with a flu bug. So I prayed that we would all be well for Christmas! Guess what… we were! However. I have been sick every since the day after as well as other members of my household. I think I prayed that wrong, huh?

I have really been prompted by God lately that I don’t pray. I talk to Him now and then and listen to Him but I rarely ask for anything. For help, for needs, for wants even.

I recently realized why. I have always had an attitude and mindset that if I just try hard enough I can do it. As well as what I have heard referred to as a “poor” mentality. This is as good as it’s gonna be so I need to make do and be content. Sounds Biblical doesn’t it? I am sure in some respects it is. But not entirely.

The opposite extreme is what my kids do when we walk into a toy store… can I have that? … at every single toy we walk past. I believe that neither response is right. And I have been guilty of both, especially the first one.

So what is the balance? I have been playing my new Wii Fit lately. It tests your balance and several of the games are played by balance. Can I just say.. I stink at the balance games. I think if God was testing my balance in life it would measure up poorly.

So what do I do when I see my failings? I set goals and plans for myself. It works for a couple of days and then I fail… horribly. Why? Because I swing to the other side of the board of balance. I try too hard. I can’t keep it up because those things in me that are the reasons that I fail in the first place have not been dealt with.

The answer? Ask God for help. I know this sounds too simplistic and cliche. But guess what. It works. Look at it like this.

I step on my balance board and see how out of kilter my life is. SO I step harder on the other side but end up being even more out of kilter. I just don’t have the muscles built up to hold steady in the center without wobbling.

I step on HIS balance board and He points out one area. Then He shows me what exercise I need to do to strengthen my muscles there. In doing that exercise I end up building muscles that help me in other balance tests. One strengthening leads to another and before long I am much closer to that goal that I long for without the self criticism and self loathing that used to make me try to fix it. Instead I have His gentle persuasive words, speaking kindness, love and acceptance in my heart. Encouraging me to take it in small steps and never giving up on me.

So I am not planning any New Years resolutions. Instead I am asking God to help me become more balanced. And to help me to keep coming to Him for help instead of trying to do it on my own. Come join me on my 2009 journey of becoming HE Fit.